Wow its been a whole month since I have blogged. I wish I could say it was because I was so happy, or so busy or anything really that I just had no time to blog. Lets see what I have done this month. I have fought with my husband several times. Husbands can be such...well fill in your own blank. I have babysat several children. Adding one child to my brood let alone two one being autistic has been challenging for me. I have started homeschooling my youngest. I was going to send him to school but couldn't manage it. I have tried to help my friend a little navigate through her depression and poopy pants husband. I have convinced my husband to try a new all natural depression medication. I have been truly thankful for my husband almost every day. I have felt so blessed by God to have my four beautiful children. I have laughed that my littlest now calls me mama and insists on kissing both cheeks and my nose. I have witnessed my daughter learn to ride her bike after 5 minutes and been amazed at how smart she is. I have watched my son learn to catch fish and see his eyes light up each time he cast the rod and a bigger fish came out ending with a salmon which had to be thrown back. My Noam has blessed me with his smile and how fast he is learning everything. I am reminded daily that I am in God's hand and He blesses me so greatly but even if He decides to take away He still has a perfect plan for me. I have had a great month. My cousin not so much, his little boy has passed and they are yet to understand God's love, I pray they will. I pray Lord you will make sense of their situation for me. Thank You for being You!