Business

Jai and I are trying to start a business. We have had our website up for about 2 weeks now and have had some items on eBay for the same amount. We have sold nothing and have had really no interest. I'm starting to wonder if God is telling us something.
On our website I do a rant. It's totally beyond my comfort zone. On Sunday I posted one, Jai said was my best. Well I have had nothing but negative feedback. Mind you it has had 380 views. But it is so hard for me to take, I just want to quit but Jai says no he likes them.
I feel God is trying to teach me some things about pride. My worth needs to come from Him.
"Whatever you ,do your work heartily as for the Lord and not for men."Col 3:23

Friends!

Man it's been a long while since I've written. Well I only write when I'm feeling passionate about something. Well the other day I said something about my friends anniversary that she took so wrongly. She decided to work with her sister on her ten year anniversary. So on facebook I wished her happy anniversary and have fun with her sister. She got so offended (so did her sister). Obviously I know she is feeling guilty, please don't take that out on me. I should really confront her but I am trying to be what God wants me to be so I apologized. She's not a close friend so no real loss but hey can she get over herself?
LORD help me be more like you. Let me run and not grow weary, let me throw off the sin that so easily entangles me. I love you Jesus!

Okay I think I better proofread before I post. My iPod changes letters and words and I don't even catch it.
So another twilight thought. Again I love my husband I really do but lying in bed looking at him I could not be married to him for eternity. Now some people might think we will be married in heaven I am banking on no but the heavenly me will not be quite so selfish. Jai is hard to live with for 10 years let alone for ever. When will Edward and bella's reality set in? After book 4 I was already getting sick of them both.

I'm done the Twilight books and very depressed like I knew I would be. Somehow it feels worse though, more than I expected. The last book wasn't that great but it did bring up some interesting thoughts. The vampires have this extra awareness of their senses. So after apwnsinf a week in rjwie world I am feeling utterly sensory deprived. I feel like my life is so Boeing and meaningless. But maybe I am supposed to feel like that. We are supposed to feel this longing foe heaven and I really do. I think that's what it's going to be like. We don't truly know beauty until we re there.
Maybe Meyer was writing something about her beliefs. Edward is always referred to as an angel and so beautiful. Hmm things to ponder if I could just get my mind clear! Sometimes I hate being so emotional! That's the only exceptionally good sense that I have.
Anyway I am making my husband take me to Forks on Sunday that's how crazy I am!

I have been reading the Twilight series. I shouldn't have even started. In fact I don't know why I ever read because I get so engrossed in the book, it's like I actually become the person. At the end I become extremely depressed, it sucks!
So I am so engrossed in Bella that I feel guilty for yearning for that kind of love. The electricity of new romance. We should be allowed to have a side romance when we are married. I mean my hubby is the best friend I will ever have and I never want to lose him but the thrill isn't quite the same now that I've washed his underwear for 9 years.
Thankfully I haven't met somone who makes my heart stop like that but I know I will not do anything stupid because I am committed for life! I will just enjoy Bella and Edward for a few more days.:0)

Well whiny kids are definately going to be the end of me. It drives me absolutely crazy! I need the Supernanny to come and help us. Or maybe someone can come and take him. Just until he's out of this stage. Which if his dad is any indication may be 30+. Jk!
He is hard to take though. God give Jai and I the patience!