I love my four kids, I do. I have just started homeschooling. I need to find resources. My kids are loving it, I am not. Not because of my kids though. I am actually part of a distributed learning program. They go to school one day a week and are at home the other four days. Its good but I also have someone who grades them to make sure I am teaching them the right stuff, fulfilling the IDPs. Its good because it keeps me on track but its bad because as a first timer at this it is so stressful. I am so worried if I am doing the right thing. It takes me about 2-2 and a half hours a day. That doesn't seem very long to me. I am always second guessing myself. I have to remind myself that it doesn't matter. both my kids could probably go into the next grade already and be fine. Plus I have always been more interested in happy well adjusted kids than smart ones. I need to trust in this. They are beautiful little people and I need to be thankful that I get to spend more time with them everyday. especially my sweet pea Elliott. She is always so quiet I was missing out on so much of her life. Now I get to sit down with her all morning and watch her learn. She is absolutely a genius. I love my babies.