Today I am anxiety ridden. It hit me about half way through my day. My husband was being his grumpy self. Just shutting down. How do I deal with that? Is he being grumpy or is it me? How do people do this for 50 years. Don't get me wrong I am relatively happy in my marriage, he is my best friend, but I just get so sick of dealing with him. I get so sick of myself dealing with him. If I wasn't married I wouldn't have to confront my selfishness or my emotional self. So I talked to him and he made some effort to change but what do I need to do? We really need a scheduled date night. Ryley is almost 9 so that is really not far off when we can just go out for coffee anytime. I need to do something by myself too. Just take an hour for myself each week. I should be going on the treadmill. I promised myself I would do it three times a week. I have to do that. Anyway at some points the prospect of being married for so long is just so crazy!!!!
I have to believe God brought us together for a purpose and we need to let Him fulfill that.