So my poor baby almost died today. My little 2 year old fell in a ditch. Not just a ditch but one that was up to his armpits full of water. We were at horse lessons for his older brother. I had put the horse in the wrong stable so I left him outside the car while I walked the 100 meters over to tell the teacher. All of a sudden a lady started screaming and I see my other son jumping out of the car. Luckily Kayde was just standing there crying. I am so thankful he didn't go in head first. It reminds me that they are God's special gift and I need to be thankful for each day with them. I just feel so guilty and stupid. I alway make these bad decisions when I am stressed and too busy.
We are switching our kids over to homeschooling half time. I think its a good decision but I am so busy trying to get it going. Its going to take me time to get into the groove but when I do it will be better. I guess until then I just shouldn't leave the house, I just can't trust myself.