Hello world,
So tonight I go to change the master password on my computer and I can't. I don't know what it is. I change it every few months so usually remember it. So then I get worried that Jai has changed it. I stress out to no end. AM I nuts?
God let this not be the case. AH I hate this part of love, trust. How do I do that? How do I trust You Lord let alone my sinful husband? ALl I pray Lord is that I would know. Let me find the evidence, most importantly let my husband tell me. That is my biggest fear that I will be lied to again. Let me trust You. If Jai fails me You won't. Let me get my comfort in that.

Life

Jesus,
What a day I am having. I am so grumpy and Jai is so grumpy. How do I deal with this? I don't know if its the heat or my birth control but I feel like I'm going a bit crazy. There is so much of me that needs to change and so much of Jai. I watched a movie called Faith Like Potatoes. The actor in it said at one point he didn't want to trust God but he did. Thats how I feel, I am just fighting it with my whole being but I need to. My whole relationship with Jai, all our problems I just need to give it to God. Just trust Him. I can hear Him telling me,"trust Me Dawn. Just trust Me. Let Me do it. Let Me have it." It's so hard.
God I trust You. I am giving this to You, I don't want to but I am.
I trust YOu!
I trust You!
I trust You!