Is it going to spring soon? i am so going crazy with the dark rainy days. I need to learn to live in the moment. I love spring and I love fall so I spend all of summer and winter waiting for the next season. But the worst is I spend spring and fall dreading the oncoming season. Isn't that sad of me? I think its sad but I still am waiting for spring. In fact I was very happy yesterday because someone said they saw the crocuses starting to pop through. That means its almost time for tulips and I love tulips. I think purple tulips are one of the happiest things in the whole world. If I ever have a house with a yard I will cover my yard in all varieties of purple tulips! In fact I will only have purple flowers and maybe I will paint my house purple. Oh I love purple! Maybe my husband should paint himself purple. He may just like the result of that. :)

Did anyone watch John Stewart last night? I was wondering if he was allowed to write down what he was going to say? Would that be a script and therefore he can't do that? Just wondering.

So I haven't told anyone this blog exists. Three reasons. 1 I am not a writer. 2 I want to talk freely about people I know, 3 I really don't think I am so important that my friends need to read my blog. How would anyone ever find it. Can anyone answer that? I am curious if anyone could ever find my blog. If they can that kind of sucks. Oh well.

Well life has been busy. Busy doing school work, busy cleaning. I have been spring cleaning. I got rid of so much junk! I was tempted to sell a lot of it but we gave it away instead. I try to not get attached to things but that is very hard. For example a coat. We bought it for Ryley 7 years ago. Noam and Kayde also wore it, not a lot but maybe once or twice. Part of me just wants to hold onto it forever and ever. I tell myself that someone could use it, its still a really nice coat. What would God have me do? So I give it away and try not to think about it. Actually whilst I am cleaning I try not to think at all. Just toss. It has come back to bite me in butt a few times but I will live. That is something I love about living in our tiny apartment no space for junk. If we ain't using it, it's gotta go. I don't know how people live in huge houses with their rooms full of junk. Well I guess they don't feel its junk. I love clutter free living.

Christmas is over! Yippee! My battery is dying and thats all I have to say. We have 364 days until Christmas. YIPPEE!!

Last night I watched the Spice Girls special. It made me want some of that fame. I just finished Rosie's "Celebrity Detox", I shouldn't want fame in any way. Its not really that I want to be famous, its just that at certain times of the day I would like the money that goes along with the fame. Thats normal right? Just to be able to go out there and buy whatever I want or whatever my kids want. I think there is also some people I would like to meet. I would like to Bono, Oprah, Rosie O'Donnell, Tom Cruise well maybe I did before I was married. Not just to meet but just because I have honest to goodness questions I would like to ask them. What makes them do the things they do? Who inspires them? What motivates them? Not Tom Cruise I just wanted him to fall madly and deeply in love with me. Now I have my hubby for that.
Does anyone else think its pretty sad when celebrities whine about their non privacy issues? I just laugh because I really can't believe that after wanting fame, the wealth all those things they could really whine about that. That is what its all about baby. Give back your millions and we will give you some privacy. Anyway I just think they get so damn spoiled.

Well today was the coldest soccer game I have ever been to. My poor son freezing cold running his little heart out. I love that boy. Other than freezing my butt off life is good. I need some sun but all is good. I am very happy because a lot of people are coming to Vancouver for Christmas and we will get to see a lot of friends. I hate Christmas so this really makes up for it.
SO anyway here is a question. The other day I was at Starbucks and this girl walked by with her skirt tucked into her undies, should I have told her? My husband and I had a bit of a chuckle but she realized soon enough. I think I was glad it didn't happen to me. I had a friend who actually walked around the mall for a couple of hours once, no one told her. Who else laughs when they see a woman's dress hanging out their car door? I always laugh, does that make me a bad person? Probably but the amount of embarrassing things that have happened to me makes up for it. Here is my top 10 embarrassing things that have happened to me.
10-Tripping up the stairs in my wedding dress.
9-Peeing my pants at camp when I was 19.
8-Always having chocolate all over my face anytime I eat chocolate.
7-Driving by my crush's house as a teen and always, always getting caught!
6-Having some weird hormone induced crush on my ob/gyn and then having to go to go back to him.
5-Knocking my urine sample of the side of the sink and it going everywhere.
4-Getting stuck in my pants at work, the zipper broke.
3-Every time I try and cook my in-laws dinner, it never works out.
2-My son peeing his pants in the middle of the dentist office, creating quite a nice pool.
1-My 3 year old daughter standing in the bathroom at Ikea and asking very loudly, "When am I going to grow a penis?"

I love my four kids, I do. I have just started homeschooling. I need to find resources. My kids are loving it, I am not. Not because of my kids though. I am actually part of a distributed learning program. They go to school one day a week and are at home the other four days. Its good but I also have someone who grades them to make sure I am teaching them the right stuff, fulfilling the IDPs. Its good because it keeps me on track but its bad because as a first timer at this it is so stressful. I am so worried if I am doing the right thing. It takes me about 2-2 and a half hours a day. That doesn't seem very long to me. I am always second guessing myself. I have to remind myself that it doesn't matter. both my kids could probably go into the next grade already and be fine. Plus I have always been more interested in happy well adjusted kids than smart ones. I need to trust in this. They are beautiful little people and I need to be thankful that I get to spend more time with them everyday. especially my sweet pea Elliott. She is always so quiet I was missing out on so much of her life. Now I get to sit down with her all morning and watch her learn. She is absolutely a genius. I love my babies.