I am sick. I hate being sick. When you are a mom of four and homeschooling what do you do when your husband has to go to work. Well yesterday I also babysat my friends children. SO I am sick and I add more excitement to my overly busy schedule. What will my husband do if I ever get really sick? Oh well I am sure I will be better tomorrow, in time to clean up after the children with their bouts of the flu.

I wish I could point a whole lot of people out to this rant that I am about to make. I am so sick of people whining and complaining. I have been a christian for 16 years, now as long as I wasn't one. It has not been easy, always challenging. Its not the loving Christ part though, its the following Him constantly challenging myself to go deeper. People do not get that. If they read the Bible does it ever say "this will be the easiest relationship of your life." No just like marriage its work, hard work. I think the people who give up on Christ are the same peole who will eventually give up on their marriages. Marriage and our relationship with Christ are beautiful symbols of one another. My favorite Bible verse lately has been Matthew 22"And you will be hated by all on account of My name, but it is the one who has endured to the end who will be saved." When Christ says endured it doesn't sound like a walk in the park. Most of my friends I have grown up with have left the church, I can some what understand this. The church is riddled with problems, sin and they are as human as us. But my sentiment is quit whining about it and do something. "Oh the church is always making me feel so guilty so I am going to not follow Christ anymore." I say STUPID. To me I don't know if you ever wre a follower because you just don't understand the point. A wise man once told me "Christ is not concerned whether we are happy or not, He is concerned about whether we are becoming more like Him." At first I was very upset now as an older wiser person I know that is true. I pray that God would work in the hearts of all these half hearted people. What we need is a church full of passionate people, people who want to serve the Lord with all of themselves. When I pray for my kids that is what I pray, that their only goal in life will be to truly serve God with their whole hearts. So to all those lame ass people I say "SUCK IT UP."

So my poor baby almost died today. My little 2 year old fell in a ditch. Not just a ditch but one that was up to his armpits full of water. We were at horse lessons for his older brother. I had put the horse in the wrong stable so I left him outside the car while I walked the 100 meters over to tell the teacher. All of a sudden a lady started screaming and I see my other son jumping out of the car. Luckily Kayde was just standing there crying. I am so thankful he didn't go in head first. It reminds me that they are God's special gift and I need to be thankful for each day with them. I just feel so guilty and stupid. I alway make these bad decisions when I am stressed and too busy.
We are switching our kids over to homeschooling half time. I think its a good decision but I am so busy trying to get it going. Its going to take me time to get into the groove but when I do it will be better. I guess until then I just shouldn't leave the house, I just can't trust myself.

Well we have a new baby in the family. Its my husband's sister had a little girl. I wish I could spell her name. Its pronounced sears sha. Its spelled like sioursia. Did her parents even think about that one. My daughters name is Elliott. When we named her we took a census of all the elliotts of the world and how it was spelled. Double L double T seemed to be the most common. Does anyone spell it right? Can you imagine the poor child. I have a prediction she is either going to go by her second name: Kathleen or she is going to be known as simply "baby" . How is baby doing today? Can you bring baby over? I can't even imagine how many times the mother is both going to have to repeat the name and also spell it. It serves he right. As soon as the child is old enough she will change it. There is actually a study out there that follows kids with odd names and how often they get bullied and even later in life how unsuccessful they are. Does that put pressure on a parent or what? I guess the name is super popular in Ireland so thats where they get it. Jai's sister has this weird thing for Ireland. She is irish but so are a lot of people. I am suprised she didn't marry some red headed irish fellow. Anyway the baby is beautiful so maybe that will carry her through.
Did you ever notice that when two beautiful people have a baby it is ugggers. But when two just average or unattractive people get together they have beautiful, beautiful babies. It is wierd how the world works that way. What do you do when you see an ugly baby? I hate it, I always get a lost for words and say "oh he/she is so cute." Eecks then you can't take it back. Its hard to believe but there really are some ugly babies out there. Our friends had one but luckily he grew up to be a little doll

Hmmm...mmmmmm.Beckham. I need to be careful because my husband could read this but ladies I know you know what I mean. I ponder that. Is it wrong for me to find men attractive. I love my husband and he is such a cutie, and I would never stray. I just think it is sometimes nice to look especially if you aren't going to ever get to touch. But I am sure he would understand if I ever did. You know like if Brad Pitt came up to me and said, "I'd love to kiss you." I think my husband would tell me to go for it. I think I would be understanding if he had the same thing happen.
Before I was married I couldn't even look at Brad Pitt I would get all happy. Now that I am married that doesn't happen anymore. Maybe because sex gets old. Not thats its old, thats not the right word. I still enjoy it from time to time, its just not the same. Maybe its the fact that I have had four kids in the last seven years and my hormones are crazy. I wish for my husbands sake they would get crazy in a good way. Maybe I should look a little more.

Well its been an exciting week. Ryle lost his soccer game. My poor boy he was in net and he let two goals in. Not one of his better days. He was freezing cold, wet and his little brother had broken his glasses. I felt so bad for him. Then my baby Kayde turned 2. We had a big party for him. It turned out better than can be expected but it was mostly attended by my husbands family. They really don't like me so thats always an experience. In my seven years of having kids I have not asked any of them to babysit for various reasons. Anyway my four year old had horse lessons today in which I have to lead the horse, so I asked if anyone could come watch and look after my little one for 1/2 hour. No one said anything. Now I could understand if my kids were awful but guess what? They aren't, especially for other people. Plus he is quite content to just sit in his stroller and watch the "horsies". Oh well I am sure others have the same problems with their in-laws.
The best part of my week has been the fact that Starbuck's eggnog latte has come. Though I am not a Christmas fan I do love the lattes. Joy of joys.

Ever tried taking Christmas photos of a 7, 6, 4 and 2 year old? It was interesting to say the least. The funny part is that our 2 year old was the one who was most patient. Most of the pictures my eldest son has this totally bored expression on his face. And of course Noam our ever happy four year old added so much to the photos. I have gotten a lot of great single shots of them but to have them all in a group just doesn't happen. Oh well it isn't supposed to look perfect anyway. We will have memories of the how interesting it was. Why do I send christmas cards anyway? I actually hate christmas but every year my hubby and I sit down and write out our 50 cards. Actually this year I was thinking of sending out Halloween cards or maybe I should send out Valentine's cards. I am just so sick of christmas already. I know thanksgiving because really now there is a reason to celebrate. I am so thankful for the four beautiful gifts God has given me. I am so blessed. Well I actually have a fifth because I have a husband more wonderful than any. Honestly he is great. He loves me and some days I just don't know how that is possible. He is my best friend and I love him.