Okay I think I better proofread before I post. My iPod changes letters and words and I don't even catch it.
So another twilight thought. Again I love my husband I really do but lying in bed looking at him I could not be married to him for eternity. Now some people might think we will be married in heaven I am banking on no but the heavenly me will not be quite so selfish. Jai is hard to live with for 10 years let alone for ever. When will Edward and bella's reality set in? After book 4 I was already getting sick of them both.

I'm done the Twilight books and very depressed like I knew I would be. Somehow it feels worse though, more than I expected. The last book wasn't that great but it did bring up some interesting thoughts. The vampires have this extra awareness of their senses. So after apwnsinf a week in rjwie world I am feeling utterly sensory deprived. I feel like my life is so Boeing and meaningless. But maybe I am supposed to feel like that. We are supposed to feel this longing foe heaven and I really do. I think that's what it's going to be like. We don't truly know beauty until we re there.
Maybe Meyer was writing something about her beliefs. Edward is always referred to as an angel and so beautiful. Hmm things to ponder if I could just get my mind clear! Sometimes I hate being so emotional! That's the only exceptionally good sense that I have.
Anyway I am making my husband take me to Forks on Sunday that's how crazy I am!

I have been reading the Twilight series. I shouldn't have even started. In fact I don't know why I ever read because I get so engrossed in the book, it's like I actually become the person. At the end I become extremely depressed, it sucks!
So I am so engrossed in Bella that I feel guilty for yearning for that kind of love. The electricity of new romance. We should be allowed to have a side romance when we are married. I mean my hubby is the best friend I will ever have and I never want to lose him but the thrill isn't quite the same now that I've washed his underwear for 9 years.
Thankfully I haven't met somone who makes my heart stop like that but I know I will not do anything stupid because I am committed for life! I will just enjoy Bella and Edward for a few more days.:0)

Well whiny kids are definately going to be the end of me. It drives me absolutely crazy! I need the Supernanny to come and help us. Or maybe someone can come and take him. Just until he's out of this stage. Which if his dad is any indication may be 30+. Jk!
He is hard to take though. God give Jai and I the patience!

Ew!

I'm blogging from my iPod!

I'm sitting here trying to get the kids to do school work. If I am using my mac or my ipod they will not do work. Its so distracting for them. Basically I just get to sit and stare at them until they need help or something marked, err!! Luckily I love them so much I will do it. Two hours of boredom is way better than waiting for them to come home for six hours. I do so enjoy them home with me.
My latest craze is Twitter. Its the best of Facebook, just the status updates. Its so fun. Plus I found this guy from the set of Heroes, and he posts pictures of the cast all day long. Okay so most of them have been props and a few of the dog Mr Muggles but I a m sure there will be some even better soon. I haven't found many friends yet though. I think its way better if you do it mobily, much easier. Is that a word mobily? Just one more thing to take my mind of things. I need less things, I need more focus!

As I sit here and write this I am shaking. My 5 year old son is in his bed screaming, he has been since about 1 pm this afternoon, it is now 5pm. We were at Walmart and he was being a turkey, we got mad at him so he kicked off his shoes. So we just left the shoes there (or so we told him, they were addidas runners). So for the next 30 minutes he screached while we continued shopping around walmart. Let me tell you I wasn't happy about the people all looking at me as if I was the one screaming. Then he doesn't want to get in the car so of course we say "stay thats your choice." Well again all the people looking at us like we were trying to steal the child or like they were going to pounce on him any second. Now we are getting near to spanking point but we finally put him in the car, (I tell him I will phone the police myself if he doesn't get his seat belt on properly). We drive home with him screaming, he stops once we get home, but I explain he is still going to bed for the rest of the day for acting that way. He cries a bit then goes to sleep for 45 min and is now screaming again. What do you do?
Lord I pray you will help me. Give me the strength, to love him. Right now all I want to do is give him away. Let me be thankful for the times he does listen and all the things you have made him. Let me hear your voice in these times just to guide me.

Well I am Twitterific today. I just signed up for twitter on Saturday, but I really don't get it. I only signed up because I read an article in the paper about it. I keep getting notifications that people are following my tweets, I don't get it. Does anyone really want to know what I am tweeting about. I keep signing up for people and then removing them. Probably bad edicate but I want a few tweets a day not one every five minutes, thats just crazy. Don't you have anything else to do with your day?