I am getting ready to celebrate my husband's 31st birthday. I don't feel like we are that old. Man oh man. I guess its because we have so many kids. That definitely makes me feel my age less, like we have accomplished so much. We have 20 years of parenting under our belts. If you look at my husband you can tell he is aging. He no longer has hair, well on his head anyway, he is getting it in his ears, his nose and on his back. Poor guy. I guess we are all aging. I am sure I will soon be rolling my boobs into my bra. Sad but true.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE OF MY LIFE!

This is my cutie. My little baby Kayde. Well he isn't a baby anymore he is almost 2 1/2. I love him dearly, maybe its because he is my last. This is actually the first time I have had a two year old without another baby in my arms. Maybe that is why he is so advanced compared to the other three. He speaks in full sentences. He knows more word than the other kids I think. The other day he said to my husband,"Daddy I am weird." Jai said,"No you aren't." "Yes daddy I am weird." It was so cute. He really isn't weird though so I don't know where he got that from. He is also already our little evangelist, he tells everyone "Jesus loves you, Jesus loves me, Jesus loves mommy. Jesus loves everyone." He is so precious! He does have his off days though. He is obsessed with our new van, well old new van. We got him a new car seat for it so we don't have to switch the car seats all the time. All he talks about is going in his new car seat and his new van. SO if we try and take him in our old car than he turns into...well I won't say it. You just wouldn't want to be around. But in the end I love him still.

I was just reading Galatians 5 and thinking about the fruits of the spirit. I have now been a christian officially half my life. I should possess most of them. Love? To those in my family yes I am loving. Although at times my husband would disagree. Joy? I struggle with finding joy. Life gets me down. Peace? I worry constantly, I pray for peace constantly. Kindness? I am kind most of the time. Goodness? I think I am good to everyone but my husband. Faithfulness? I am faithful, Gentleness? Again depends on whom you ask. Patience? Ask Jai if I am very patient when he was late yesterday for the hundredth time. Self-control? I can be sometimes.
As I typed that I realized again what marriage does to me. It brings out all my flaws, the very worst in me. Last night I was telling my Jai how upset I was that he had been late yet again. We were arguing and I just felt like I just didn't want to be married anymore like it was too difficult. Then today as he was at work all day I missed him so much. God has so much to do in me. I am like a little kid, I have so much growing to do. Marriage is great for that. Its like a giant piece of sand paper smoothing away all our rough spots.
I am thankful that the Lord gave me Jai. I pray we will get to enjoy each other until we are 100! Well I hope I don't live that long.